Foto, 2007 //A.L. my first mentor & one of the dearest friends whom i met in NYC //
Its so hard to maintain the balance of relationships.
It seems that people just wait for the moment to get on your case. To fight you. You share with them how you feel and ask them to read and get back to you and they get back by fighting instead of calmly expressing their way of seeing things or feeling about a situation. The mature or maturer becomes a stronger fighter when it comes to foolish issues.
And then you have those friends to whom you reach out for a coffee and they never even have the decency to respond to you. Well, I often confuse the friends with the lovers so maybe the latter have a right not to ever respond for that coffee. Ha!
I used to feel that having friends is the best thing. Lately i think its a good curse also. You need to know very well your friends to call them so. Once my friend J.H. wrote me : "You are not a friend anymore to me. I only have five friends and I keep it this way because I am selective" . She is right that not everyone can be one's friend. People with too many friends are not True Friends TO THEMSELVES!
Some friendships get tested through time. When I first arrived to nyc, E.P. had shown me her bad side as a friend. Six years later, I travelled to the homeland only for one reason; to receive the below words from her: "I am sorry that back in New york I wasnt a good friend to you. I Love you."
The word "sorry" for some people means nothing. To me, it means a lot. And I definitely know how to use it often.
I have so many memories of friends who were there for me during my struggles and then disapeared. And some who couldnt deal with my struggles, but said sorry later.
Those are the True Friends in my soul.
All the rest, were just passing by.
Hope you all stay true to what a Friend means to you!
Have I been a great Friend?
To few yes, to some no..to myself absolutely!
Why I fight a lot with my Friends?
Because i LOVE THEM DEEPLY!
Muchas Love,
- Garia August

